Updated Weds Oct 8th …
Wow – History favors the beautiful, the gifted, the beloved …
I went to read Calpernia’s Weblog today and found that my comments, Calpernia’s apology for missing the UCC Speaking engagement, and all info related to that non-event has disappeared from her blog as if it never happened. All that remains is some chitty-chatty froufrou from the adoring fans …
What an intriguing way to view reality!
So much for living an authentic life …
This is a continuation of the posts Calpernia Speaks: part 1 which was then continued in Calpernia Speaks Part 2: The Deep Stealth Speaker
Hello Heather,
Thanks for continuing to be concerned about the story. I apologized to everyone I could apologize to and posted the apology in several places as well, but since I waited all day for a call that never came from the person who was my only contact with information and transportation, there was not much I could do. Remember, I am not from DC and needed someone to help me meet this commitment. I feel terrible about it already, and yes, as so many people have mentioned, I know there have been incidents of violence against trans women in DC. I really don’t know what else I could have done without help from my contact there, which never came. Not to my cellphone, in my hand all day, nor to my business phone number which was available to anyone connected to SLDN. My diary is a lighthearted, fun read and not a flogging post for my personal failings, so yes, after apologizing publicly there I chose not to dwell on it and removed the story.
I sense that you’re ribbing me a little on the subject, but please remember that I was in DC on behalf of SLDN and the work we’ve all done in the years after my boyfriend Barry Winchell’s murder. This was a difficult, emotional weekend (despite smiling pictures and recounting of my experiences in my diary.) Add to that seeing Barry’s mother and father again. I really had a lot on my mind and heart at the time. I regret missing the church engagement, but I was there for Barry, his family, SLDN and the work at hand. If I had just received a phone call telling me when and where to meet someone to drive me, I would have also been very happy to be at your church. Please don’t make me feel any worse than I already do. I hope that if you’re ever forced to relive the murder of a loved one again and again, even years after they are gone, you will handle all the many associated details of travelling and speaking and meeting commitments alone as well as I have.
Calpernia